just a feeling!
disclaimer: i wrote this back in 2016 or 2017. didn't want to alter the sanctity of a past piece so this is a completely unedited and unmodified version of it.
Maybe this sounds a bit weird and odd. But there has to be a room for a guy who’s wanting to pour his feelings somewhere. Well, I just had an experience. Say guys, I experienced “love”. Ofcourse I quoted love because it’s too complex. It’s complex enough that you won’t find words to define it (except those memes you find hovering around the Internet !). Everyone’s got their own definition.We (teenagers) have especially drawn a very strict rule to this term (Our Instagram stories define it all).
Well , I ran into an experience that I may not want to forget at all. I know I can remember it for sure but just in case, I happen to be an alzheimer patient in the future, I am typing it all up. And for those who have managed to surpass this writing till now , I request you to read it till the end.
Well, it was around 5:30p.m. and I was my way back to my house.(go on! I promise it won’t turn out to be a cliché horror story). So yeah, I was on returning but on my way I met umm ..You know when we were kindergarden students and there used to be caretaking ladies( kinda school nannies)who took care of the students everywhere they went. So yeah , basically I ran into her today and fortunately I remembered her face. She is retired now btw. I just approached her and thanked her for making my kindergarden schooling so swift. I went to touch her feet but she resisted and instead patted me and hugged me ( I didn’t even get a chance to get off my scooty.) I am gonna tell you her exact words-“बेटा , तुमने बस याद रख लिया ये ही मुझे बहुत अच्छा लगा। बच्चों की बहुत याद आती है। बेटा बहुत पढ़ो और अच्छे इंसान बनना।”She was literally crying and clearly strugging to prevent her tears.And I was helpless because I can’t do anything for her.And then she kissed me on my forehead (twice) and we exchanged goodbyes and that was it !
Maybe a boring story from a dumbass person but that meant a lot to me . I was literally touched. If she would have bursted into tears , I would have too.That meet was a 2 minute scene , but there was a charm to that slightest of moment. All I gave her was a little love and attention and in return , I get back a memory for a lifetime!
12 years , no contact and a 2minute conversation. - See that’s what life can give you. There are moments of love out there waiting for you , all you need to do is to take a little time off from love to find “love”. We are often mistaken beauty for heart. I have a feeling . I believe if you start with the beauty you won’t reach the heart. But maybe if you start with the heart , you will find beauty!